I miiiiiight be migrating to ng for like. the bulk of what I post?? Idk. The more I use "normal" socmed the more I hate it, I've tried federated stuff like mastodon but the rules are always too strict and I can't post most of what I draw, or looser but for a niche community.

I fucked around on tumblr for??? A long time. I've had a blog on there since like 2016 but I've only really been active since 2019 and even then I kinda stick to a small bubble of mutuals, since so many people over there are antific and it's just kinda unpleasant. I don't care about being harassed on the internet, the block button is free and easy to use if someone is really bothering me. But the threat is irritating anyway.

I've also tried all the big name socmed over the years, facebook, twt (both before and after it went to shit,) insta, ect. But the need to post everyday to have anyone other than bots see your work is down right dreadful.

Ig I could self host, I've thought about that one a lot. Only ever posting my art on my website.

But also, I do want people to see my work, I love creating things, I love making stupid shit and cute art and niche specific ships for fandoms I'm not in because one mutual asked me to. I like selfshipping and being so annoyingly myself and I hope it gives other people the confidence to do it to.

wehg

There's also like.

Discord.

I've fucked around in discord a lot, and it's about the closest thing I've found to what I want. But the constant enshittification is annoying as hell, and all the servers I've been in and liked inevitably get big enough that it stops feeling like a nice little community of people who all know each other into something larger.

I know the solution to this is making my own. I've done it before, owned an ran discord servers. I've had a few niche fandom ones that were really good, but also,,, I move fandoms a lot, so I end up leaving.

I've been in a couple really small ones, like 15-20 people small, and it's been good, but inevitably either people more widely social than I move on to larger servers to make more friends and I'm sat with the 5 other people who don't want to leave an otherwise inactive server. Or it has the other issue of getting too big to feel personal.

Specifically about making my own, I also worry about ripping off other servers- which is *stupid as fuck* I know, I promise I know.

But like?? Esp recently it feels like a "Guess I gotta do everything myself." and I. shrimply don't fucking want to.